When asked about spirituality, a Native American elder once described his own inner struggles in this manner:
“Inside of me there are two dogs. One of the dogs is mean and evil. The other dog is good. The mean dog fights the good dog all the time.”
When asked which dog wins, he reflected for a moment and replied, “The one I feed.
6/15/08 update. (Elsie a fellow blogger said that this quote is actually attributed to Watchman Nee)
Here’s a quote I came across several years ago that also captures some of my experience:
” In our members there is a slumbering inclination toward desire which is both sudden and fierce. With irresistible power, desire seizes mastery over the flesh. All at once a secret, smoldering fire is kindled. The flesh burns and is in flames. At this moment God is quite unreal to us. He loses all reality and only the desire for the creature is real. Satan does not fill us with hatred of God, but with forgetfulness of God.” Dietrich Bonhoeffer
One of the most sobering passages of scripture (for me) is the decent of David (Ruler of Israel) into adultery and murder. You can read the whole sordid account starting in 2nd Samuel chapter 11. David is called a “man after God’s own heart.” He started out as a lowly shepherd boy, God hand picks him to lead a nation, at the height of his success, he has sex with another man’s wife , gets her pregnant tries a cover it up, when that fails, he has the husband killed….and the consequences dogged him the rest of his life.
If you think you could never do anything like that…
then the slide has already been greased .
I am of the persuasion, that all of us, under the right circumstances are capable of almost anything…feel free to disagree w/ me on that, but I’ve lived long enough, seen enough stuff , and know my own heart to say….we are our own worst enemy.
I think I’m going to write a 3rd post on this topic…One of my biggest struggles was understanding the difference between temptation and sin. I’d like to write about that, also, spend a few minutes talking about dog food.