Picture from my latest class reunion. I’m in there somewhere…see if you can spot me
Tonight is my class reunion.
I’m looking forward to it about as much as going in to have a colonoscopy
But I’m going.
For several reasons.
Some of which you might not understand.
Couple of them you might.
“Why do you hate those years so much?” Sharon asked me when I told her I didn’t want to go….
(Sharon is a friend and Pediatrician )
I told her :
“I was a late bloomer.
I was small, insecure, one of the last ones picked when we chose teams in gym class.
I was so shy, I can literally count on one hand the number of conversations I had with girls during the whole 4 yrs of high school.
I had a musical bent,
– not a stud on the foot ball team, so I never got any strokes as an athlete.
I hated my name. (that is no longer the case, but you know how it is as a kid…the other kids can come up with the meanest things, using your name as a spring-board.
Didn’t really have any close friends. sure there were a handful of us that hung out together to party and stuff..but nobody I would say who was interested in me as a person.
So why in the world would I want to go to one of my “class reunions”???????!!!!!!!
Here’s a portion of what Sharon told me:
“Doug, this sounds like many of the boys I take care of right now. The difference between then and now is we physicians are more aware that not going into puberty by 15 years of age, although not physically a problem, can be emotionally devastating to young men in high school.
The cruelty they go through is enormous.”
So, after 35 years, someone comes along and validates the ” inner angst” I went through.
I am amazed I was not more scarred and messed up than I was.
Today I am comfortable in my skin.
I love my name,
I love my ears (read this one if you haven’t already
I’ve already written about my journey out of low self esteem here so I’ll not repeat myself.
The only thing I will tell you is it is possible to reprogram your mind.
Overcoming low self worth is a learned skill.
I have learned the best way for me to deal with an issue in my life is to charge it head on.
If I ever encounter a burglar I can pretty much guarantee you I’m going to head butt him….hard