That was then and this is now. Things are different today.”
I didn’t buy his answer.
I was in my early 20′s , experiencing a spiritual hunger and restlessness I hadn’t gone looking for it…
it had popped out of the ground of my life like a mushroom.
One minute I was minding my own business, doing my own thing, the next thing I knew, there was a hungry for something spiritual that was real.
It started when I read the following account:
“All the believers continued together in close fellowship and shared their belongings with one another. They would sell their property and possessions and distribute the money among all, according to what each one needed. Every day they continued to meet as a group in the temple, and they had their meals together in their homes, eating the food with glad and humble hearts, praising God and enjoying the good will of all the people. and every day the Lord added to their group…”
Just for a second, try not to get hung up in the “churchy” words and just try to imagine what it would be like to be involved with people on that level of relationship…
Certainly not like any church experience I’d ever had.
I tend to chew on stuff like this, So there I was at work one morning, setting up scaffolding with Lester. He was in his 60′s, an old retired farmer. minding his own business, and there I was, wound tight, asking him about deep spiritual things on a construction site.
You got to love him ….we’d worked together for a few years so he didn’t just write me off as some nut job.
His answer didn’t satisfy me but I let it go…..
There was a major disconnect when I would read about the 1st century Christians and what passes for “Christianity” today.
A major disconnect
I have a hair trigger when it comes to hypocrisy and phoniness.
I have been known to get agitated and leave the room.
What happened was, my hunger for deeper, genuine relationships actually increased.
We’re all at different places in our lives. As I’m writing this, I’m talking to someone who is spiritually hungry, but put off by organized religion.
Ever wonder how you can sort out all of the conflicting voices out there telling you this is truth…no, this is truth…no, there is no such thing as absolute truth, all paths will eventually lead you to the truth…bla bla bla.
Here’s a tip- look @ the person or the source of who’s talking to you and look at their life...If they’re married do they seem to have a healthy marriage or does it feel phony. If they have children…do they look like they’re nurtured, or is something not quite right? Does this person for some weird reason give you the creeps? (don’t discount that sort of thing/ I think it’s discernment)
We moved to the East Coast so I could pursue some schooling. A local faith community took us under their wing, full of imperfect but genuine people who had also decided they wanted nothing to do with the phony crap that passes for “church” today. It was there I had my thirst for deep significant relationships slaked. We were there 5 years. When we did eventually return to the Midwest, I brought back with me the know-how , the first hand experience on how to cultivate those same type of relationships….genuine, loving, trusting, practical and real.
Reminds me of doing an internship at an organic farm for 5 years.
After 5 years you would hopefully come away with the ability to grow fresh vegetables.
So here I sit this morning thanking God for the spiritual hunger and restlessness he puts into my heart so many years ago now and for the ways he regularly satisfies it. DM