I (DM) came across this cool looking spider a couple of weeks ago @ work. We were reroofing an older home and when I peeled off the ridge vent, he came crawling out. I did two things when I saw him..first I ran back down to my truck and grabbed the camera..It was so unusual I wanted to take a picture. Second thing, which kind of left me mystified…I didn’t want to kill it. Now, normally I would have squashed it without a second thought, but there was something in me that didn’t want to. Not sure why I reacted that way…although if you take the time to read the Fulghum story at the end of this post, you’ll see I”m not the only one who has hesitated to kill a bug…

A marbled orb weaver
I (DM) need your help again
Anyone care to translate a poem by Walt Whitman for me? I know you probably think I’m kidding. I have a hunch he’s buried a pearl of wisdom in it , I’m just not what it is.
I remember in 7th grade , Miss Burns had us read Jonathan Livingston Seagull. For the life of me, I did not know what to do with that story.
Here’s that poem:
By Walt Whitman
1819-1892
A noiseless patient spider,
I mark’d where on a little promontory it stood isolated,
Mark’d how to explore the vacant vast surrounding,
It launch’d forth filament, filament, filament out of itself,
Ever unreeling them, ever tirelessly speeding them.
And you O my soul where you stand,
Surrounded, detached, in measureless oceans of space,
Ceaselessly musing, venturing, throwing, seeking the spheres to
connect them,
Till the bridge you will need be form’d, till the ductile anchor hold,
Till the gossamer thread you fling catch somewhere, O my soul.
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I’ll close with this short meditation by Robert Fulghum .
“Meditation on the Death of a Fly”
The first warm day of onrushing spring rallied the dormant bug population of my house. As school locker rooms spill teams of amateur athletes onto practice fields at this season, the egg sacs in the darkest corners of my study burst forth legions of tiny spiders onto the floor and launch waves of minute flying midges onto the wall. No cause for exterminating action for me. Experience has taught me patience. Within hours the baby bugs will be lunch for a small team of freshman lizards.
On a slightly larger scale, the Dispersal Committee of the Housefly Commune has already assigned one juvenile fly to each room of my house. These newly licensed pilots move with maniacal speed, zooming erratically here and there, practicing upside-down landings on the ceilings, crashing into the clear window glass, and corkscrewing through the air in acrobatic shows of skill- but seldom landing long enough for me to get a shot at them with my Great Yellow Swatter of Death.
There are also a few tenacious survivors left over from the end of winter. For two days now a fat, elderly fly has lived out his last hours on top of my desk. His airborne adventures seem to have ended. Slowly he walks from one end of the desk to another, pausing at the edge, and walking back again to the other end and another edge. He does not bother me. I do not bother him. It is in his favor that he has lost the urge , the will, or the ability to launch himself into the air. As long as he does not enter my No Fly Zone, I am content.
Once he even heaved himself up onto the Great Yellow Swatter of Death, walked its length, tumbled off the end and walked on. Fearless. Dignified. Senile.
This morning he is still present, though moving ever so slowly, a centimeter or two at a time. At this moment he rests between me and the computer screen, scratching and patting his head with his two front feet. Perhaps he is reflecting on the distance to the far away edge of the table. He sighs and plods on.
I worry about him.
What is there for an old fly to eat or drink on the hard brown desert of my desk? Will he fall off the edge the next time he gets there and break his neck? Or try his wings one last desperate time before he nose-dived into the tile floor? Do his children know where he is, or care? Can he see me, the possible agent of his fate, and is he afraid? Does he anticipate the coming of the Great Lizard, or is he comforted by knowing that, like mutton, he is too tough and stringy to be eaten now?
I can’t ignore him- there he is, creeping back and forth.
I can’t push him off the table- too cruel.
And I can’t quite bring myself to smash him dead too easy.
So I put a jar over him and peered at him through a magnifying glass. Unlike other insects I’ve investigated, he did not panic- no mad rushing about or trying to escape. He looks tired and gray. Slowly he wrings his hands. When I removed the jar, he resumed walking toward the edge again with great dignity and purpose. Just before I turned off the light to go to bed, he was walking in circles, slowly, slowly, slowly….
This morning I found him lying on his back. Dead.
With respect for his dignity and mine, I took him outside for burial. With a teaspoon I dug a small grave for him beneath a weed that is just coming into bright red bloom.
A unique event, however trivial. This first fly funeral I had attended. I pondered the sense of mercy that stayed my hand from the Great Yellow Swatter of Death. What kept me from automatically smashing the life out of the vulnerable senior fly? Soft-hearted folly or seasoned wisdom?
Being culturally wired to detest flies and kill them at any opportunity, what got into me? Briefly we were the only two living things in the room. Struggling on as long as possible. The spark of life in him and the spark of life in me was the same. We were connected. Live and let live.
Now I understand what it means when people say: “He wouldn’t hurt a fly.”
That can happen.